Making my hope sure

Currently listening to: Clinging to the Cross by Tim Hughes. Listen to this song…it is amazing!

I absolutely love this song. I heard it a long time ago and was recently reminded of it when I heard it on one of my dear friends’ blogs. It rings such truth, resonates so much with my heart right now.

I have had a whirlwind of emotions sweep over me lately. I have been really frustrated with the silence of God in my life. He is there, oh he is there, but seems to be so quiet. I am at a place where I know he is preparing me…and that my “anonymous years” are not held in vain, but in the same I feel so unused, so unproductive, so bored. So… I have been mad at him. Why would you do this? Why would you move me away from Nashville, where the people who know me to my core are, where comfort is, and then plant me here where I am once again left with feeling unsettled and bored….and not feeling an impact on the Kingdom. I just want him to tell me what it is that all this preparation is for…all this time of waiting and waiting……

The truth is…he has been speaking all along. The truth is HE knows me better than anyone ever will…and I am INDEED having an impact on the Kingdom. I have plugged my ears like a little child. I was so busy asking everyone else for answers. So busy distracting myself from hearing him because I really didn’t want to hear what he had to say. I want him to tell me what I wanted to hear not what his will was. So I was silenced. I sat on my porch and for the first time in awhile I heard him. I sat and sat and listened and listened…and pressed in for the first time in awhile…and I heard “I am making your hope sure”. I thought on this for awhile and then found this in Hebrews 6 …”God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them. We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, in order to make your hope sure. We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised.”

I just love this. He is not unjust. He will not forget us. BUT he wants us to show diligence to the VERY end. And all of this to make our hope sure. We will inherit what he has promised. I needed to hear that so bad.

Lots of opportunity ahead. Lots of different directions…but I know where my hope is found. I know where to cling to.


Simply to the cross I cling…Letting go of all earthly things
Clinging to the cross
Mercy’s found a way for me…Hope is here as I am free
Jesus, You are all I need
Clinging to the cross


Cling to him. Wait on him. He will not disappoint.

Love is Waiting...

In the autumn on the ground, between the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
i watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories - whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
When it's time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

I'll be waiting for you baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting til we're ready, til it's right
Love is waiting

It's my caution not the cold
there's no other hand that i would rather hold
the climate changes, I'm singing for the strangers about you
don't keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can
the bets are getting surer now that you're my man

I could right a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
and like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start
neither should I rush my way into your heart

-"Love is Waiting", Brooke Fraser


Ok this post is a little out of the norm for me...but it was on my heart today so I figured I would write about it.....

These lyrics are just ridiculous. I am a sucker for a song like this. For those of you who know me well, you know that I am not the girl who has to be in a relationship every moment of her life. Not the girl who is depressed that she is single. I think singleness is such a sweet season of life. The Lord has my utmost attention. No distractions and from experience...when someone does come along, it is a battle to continue that sweet time with the Lord. I think this season only prepares us more for what's to come. So if being single for years means that much more preparation is needed, then that's fine because I would hate to cheat any of that time. I have however, had a few friends in the past few months say they think I will be married in a year. haha....makes me laugh a little. we shall see...but I am not even close to banking on that.

Now, that is not to say I am not excited about marriage. I am absolutely stoked. It is going to be so amazing and the thought of having someone to lock arms with, do life with and work at expanding the Kingdom together makes me more excited than words can say. I can't wait to love some one as much as I will love him!

The bridge of this song is what gets me..."I could right a million songs about the way you say my name...I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again". Geeeezzzzzzzz....that just makes me so excited! ...but here is the second part..." I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start...neither should I rush my way into your heart". Dang! I feel like there is such an epidemic of this generation to RUSH at love. I can't tell you how many girls I ask "what is your dream" and they say "to get married". Now as cute as that sounds....I would hate to say that was my only dream. I am a girl of much vision, so for getting married to be the ONLY thing I want in this life just makes me sad. The MRS degree is just not what I went to college for and it is definitely not ALL I want in this life. I don't want to rush at anything, much more, getting married just for the sake of it being my "dream". Do I know what I want YES ( side note: and not a word from any of you who are older than me and you know who YOU are...there is a specific scripture in the WORD that says to not look down on those younger :)...and plus most of you know I am more mature than most of your 30 plus year old selves ;) )...and if I met that person, could I go fast...sure....but that is not my goal to meet someone and get married as fast as I can.

I can't tell you how many talks I have with my precious high school girls about this topic. It seems society has told us that to be single is to be a loser. I couldn't disagree more. I want my girls to see that value and sweetness of this time. I want these girls to have dreams for their lives and KNOW THEIR WORTH in Christ before they ever settle down. From my own personal experience of watching this first hand in my family's life, the last thing I wish over these girls is for them to rush into something and wake up one day when they are 40 and have no clue who they really are and don't really know what they are passionate about. I want them to be world changers and not just the wife (or husband...not tryin to discriminate ;) ) of so-and-so....without any other identity but that. Not to say I will not be so proud to be his wife...but my identity reaches far outside that as well. It's in Christ.

I do dream of him...all the time. I pray for him everyday. I can't wait to meet him. I miss him (is that even possible?...i really do though)....But I am willing to wait. give it time, give space and be still....for when it is time to walk that way I want to walk it well.

So whether it is a year from now or 10 years from now...I'll be waiting for him. Love is waiting til we're ready...til it's right.


Love is Waiting....

A bunch of thoughts....

This post is just going to be random, just like me :)

The lighter/funny post:

Last night a bunch of my friends and I were hanging on my front porch (the greatest porch ever). We were discussing my new favorite thing. It is a blog. My friend Brad and his buddies introduced it to me this past Sunday. It’s called “Stuff Christians Like”….go read it…so freaking funny and true!

There was a post in their about how people...whether married or just dating....seem to have hard time not touching each other in Church. We were also talking about how "friends" giving back massages to each other is not very smart when you are the opposite sex. We all know whose people in Church and then we definitely know those "friends". I have had my fair share of being one of those "Friend massagers" in my past. We were all laughing about different situations and debating on the topic. Personally, I get annoyed by couples rubbing each others back or even worse...LEG during church...it is just not necessary and really gross to me. It doesn't mean you don't love your significant other if you don't do that...AND it is distracting to everyone else. Just wait until you get to the car. haha.

The whole "friend massage" thing was what was funny. Here is why...

We talked about how it always has another meaning behind it when you are "just friends". Now i will admit. I do love my friends and I can be touchy...not too much though. I discern how people are about it. One thing i debated on was giving my guy friends a massage. Too intimate for friends. We were really debating this subject b/c for me at least, there have been exceptions to the rule. They are guys in my life who are like brothers to me and I would NEVER be in a relationship with them...just not attracted to them in that way. BUT....who is to say that they aren't attracted to me. I mean, I am pretty dang beautiful :). (that is just for YOU and you people know who you are :) ). Anyway...I just realized I should just not do that whatsoever, just to be safe, no matter how much I think it is harmless.

Ok...so not even 10 mins later, a girl friend of mine asked one of our guy friends to pop her back. She walked over and he proceeded to stand behind her and pick her up by her arms laying across her chest. We heard a loud pop. It sounded like it felt good. So now we all did it...including me. DANG IT. All that talk for nothing. haha. Popping a back may not be considered a massage...but it kind of defeated the purpose of what I was saying. I laughed pretty hard.

So I am bored today at work. Well actually I have a ton to do but it is just kind of repeative stuff today...

but I know God is up to something. BIG THINGS. I know that a job will come along that will totally fit my gitting and my passions. I do love Young Life....this role is just not a good fit for me. So I am excited for what God has next for me!! That may require moving but not too far

away :). I just love how the Lord never stops shaping vision in our lives. Now if only he would write what is next for me in the sky :)

I choose excitement over fear in this season!

Cheesy...yes, yes i know :) ...hope it made you smile a little though!

Have a great day!