So much has changed in the past month. Life has taken many turns and I MUST say that God is definitely at work in my heart. “I am changing…less and less asleep….made of different stuff than when I began”…(gotta love B. Fraser’s wisdom in that song J). This could not be MORE true. When I think of who Erin Elizabeth Celica Conner (you are welcome Chandler J) was 10 years ago, 5 years ago, even a month ago… I am awestruck at the God I serve. He just love changing us. Not because he was bored….not because he wants to torture us…but because He LOVES his kids and wants to delight in us…pulling us closer and closer to his side. Closer to who he is. Duh, wasn’t that what we created for?!
I say all this…but I am laughing because these past couple of months have not been COMPLETELY as comfortable as it seems. There are a ton of growing pains that have come with it…not to mention the incredible relationships of IRON on IRON I have gained…peeps who aren’t afraid to say what they need to say to me when I am acting foolish. Here are some things I have learned….
-Do not carry my passions as burdens….and know that God has gone before me to set into motion when each passion will flourish. I don’t have to live them all out at once.
-God’s peace is ALWAYS available to us. We pray and pray and pray for it…but the fact is, it is ALWAYS there….we just don’t always choose to tap into it.
-NEWSFLASH: spending time with Jesus everyday REALLY does change not only your attitude for the day…but your LIFE. I have realized how important it is…wait no…how it is MOST important. I can’t tell you the number of times I am late to work because of this….and how cool that I don’t get fired. How would anyone at Young Life say…you are fired for spending too much time with the Lord. AND my attitude about work is WAYYYYYYY better.
-Don’t think about it so much. (thanks Dove promise J)
-TRUST…I cannot think of a better word that describes this past month. Trusting in his will…and being obedient to it…even when you REALLY don’t want to....
-Gosh oh Gosh oh Gosh… I am learning so much about my personality. The things that make me Erin…and then those that I “claim” are me…but in reality they really don’t speak well the character I long to have. My sarcasm is one of those. I am funny…what can I say J…but when it is at others expense, I need to take a step back. God is BIG time working with me on this.
I love the journey. I love my Jesus and how he is delighting in me…even when I act like such a brat J. I love that I am growing up but still have the same child-like fun I always want to have with life. Taking life ONE DAY at time!
